I don’t know what my deal is. It’s like before my boyfriend was the only one in his group of friends that had a girlfriend so they all thought I was cool and whatnot, but then one of them started dating this big-chested chick and now I’m just the slightly attractive bitch now that there’s someone to compare me to.
I swear I’m better than 2 years ago, I just need to wipe everyone’s memories…
I posted a status about my epiphany on facebook earlier and my aunt commented saying something stupid basically saying I should take my epiphanies with me to college or something.
No. I don’t need to go to college. I don’t think I will ever need to go to college. I just won’t. It’s possible to live a happy life without attending some expensive boring-ass college. If I ever do decide I want to pay to get an education on something, I’ll probably either buy an expensive book or take a specific course online or something. Fuck all the unnecessary math and english and whatnot. It isn’t needed. I also don’t have the time or money for that shit.
Anyways, I’m fine expressing my epiphanies amongst my boyfriend, his intelligent friends, and on my blog. Thanks.
Ugh go to the concert that’s 5 mins away from my house late at night or stay at home with my pigs and be happy go to listen to good yet very loud music with a room full of weird people and a couple people I know or stay at home and watch King of the Hill go see my boyfriend or stay at home with my guinea pigs be in the presence of my boyfriend and let him be annoying in person or stay at home with the internet.
I mean maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if after my boyfriend hung out with that one bitch she didn’t post multiple statuses about it and then share both of his band pages.
Every. F-ing. Time.
I mean, my boyfriend whines about how I’m not as affectionate as I used to be and he worries that I’m not attracted to him anymore, and then he goes and pisses me off by hanging out with that one bitch I wish would get accidentally hit by 5 buses back to back.
Today I found out that there’s a family Easter party coming up on Saturday, yet unfortunately I will probably not be able to make it.
It sucks since I won’t be able to see my cousin or finally get the picture to my grandma,
but it’s not like I’m going to be missed. Sure, I have a car and a job and I have a boyfriend that takes care of me and I’m living a happy life, but none of that matters because I’m not a college student. I feel like the family just deeply frowns upon the fact that I’m not attending college.
I was driving through town a couple days ago and when I was passing the police office I saw the bitch that tore my family apart getting into her stupid truck. I could have hit the gas and killed her, but I didn’t because I value life outside of prison. Instead I just screamed when I drove past her and I think she saw/heard me or at least my car.
Seriously though, just knowing that I had the chance to kill her, it’s such a weird feeling. Just realizing that I was in control of a moving metal machine and she was defenseless outside her car, it’s a different feeling.
